its time to get things back on track. after all that's been said and done (or undone is some cases). its time for me to focus on the things that I've been neglecting.

life happens when you're busy making plans. it also continues when you give in to self-pity or in some cases when you become so self-absorbed in your supposed problems that you don't give a shit about everything else or everyone else that is supposed to matter.

a brief conversation with a friend yesterday made me realize that there are always people who are going through bigger, real-er problems than the ones you feel you are going through. her situation is much more dire than mine would ever come close to and if i was her, i'd be at a loss of the next step to take. while all of us work towards a form of security - financially, emotionally, physically, whatever...to have more than one of these elements taken away so emphatically and suddenly can literally kill the soul.

i've just got to man-up and get on with it. i've done it before..maybe too many times that a part of me thought i was entitled to wallowing in the self-pity that i have so pathetically held on to these past few months.

so let's take things on, one at a time. work, shows, school and then everything else. this journey starts tonight and i'll take it on the way i have before - full-on with as much determination as the hardiness that i so easily let fizzle out recently.

get up, get on and move. don't let the goals you've set become distant dreams. no more playing around adib.

so i'll wake up tmr with this chorus in my head: