Wednesday, September 17, 2008
bye bye love.
After constant wrestling with thoughts of my own ability, the time has come for me to put every one of those insecurities aside.
This month has been significant in its own ways. Time has allowed me to reflect upon the past and plot the planned future and so I've come to certain conclusions. I think those who know me best will be waiting for it all to suddenly change again..I know Sheereen is..heh.
I want to go through with this. Getting the academic part of life over with and
maybe having to leave behind a world I love but one I've never really been able to give everything too. Vindication for your work is always welcomed but the way things have panned out for me and the people that I like working with have probably stunted my progress. Its sad and I still love the energy I feel when I step on stage regardless of how the process before went but I don't know when my next production is and that's an empty feeling I have to fill up somehow.
So as this month of patience comes to an end, my life could possibly take a totally different direction from what I set out to achieve this time last year. I wonder who would smirk at the inadvertence of it all, I know many would not even notice my absence because of my minimal presence to begin with. I wonder how I'm going to cope.
-dib- at 2:40 PM