is that your legacy? the constant ranting and feelings of frustration. the bitching and scowling and hoping that "they" fail. is that my legacy?

how much of this life is actually "ours"?

i've come to this conclusion - savour every experience and devote yourself to the love of your lives, whatever or whoever it may be.

we've been brought up in a community of negativity and cynicism. i'm full of that myself. even as i'm writing this i wonder who would snicker and make a pun out of that last sentence. this "hatred" of sorts tires me.

at the end of the day when you take your last breath, what do you want to be remembered for?

for now i just want to fulfill my responsibilities as the son my parents hoped so much for, i owe them that and much more. if that's all i'm remembered for i think i'll take it.

this is a very fragmented and possibly incoherent entry. can't be helped because that's the state of my mind right now - more to do with the time than anything else. i just felt a need to write.

i need to do something inspiring.