Tuesday, April 15, 2008
5 lbs
heavy is the heart and the mind; the expectation that was, weighed me down again and again.
dreams and aspirations leave through the back door, leaving regret and bitterness. leaving you forever wanting more.
blinded by this sense of loss,you ignore the knocking at the front. locking yourself up, in the cloud of desperation you left a long time ago.
the lightness of being was something i thought i found. it was so light in the end that it flew away bringing with it the end of my belief in things that used to be.
cynics. should have believed in them a long time ago.
focusing on the wrong thing, that's my weakness. "focus on the task at hand, whatever that may be." the little voice that's kept me company all these nights been pretty tired but he's got to learn to remind me this constantly. no matter how deep the shit you're in, you've got to get the job done. and get it done i will.
crossroads of my life, there have been many but this is the most crucial.
-dib- at 10:41 PM